Qaween Erytry 🌳

Thought it was real but it was all a dream deep into my thoughts as the time go by reminiscing about everything u said was a lie thinking everything i wanted was gone and now i’m feeling all alone lay in the dark deep in sorrow i question will i make it till tomorrow Felt like was abandon by the people i love so i decided to spread my wings like doves Where is God where is he Hoping he didn’t leave me Use to feeling lefted out and invisible the pain inside made me misrable This time won’t you please save me Break every chain and i’m free.....

Since I was a little girl I always dreamed about having a perfect life & being a good wife Everything was starting to fall into place Until my life started in a worst case Never thought my innocents would be taking away from me I was confused and hurt as you can see Begin to think something was wrong with me The feeling of feeling dirty at the age of 5 years old  Thats when I knew this world was cold Didn’t realize what was really going on I wish this feeling would be gone Sitting here in pain looking to seek I never thought I would feel so weak She was so hurt & covered in sin She wish her life would come to an end......

Writing in my notebook helps me think of how to express my words to sing.  A phone call away wasn't at ease. As the words came out it had me speechless  "You are something that most girls want to be and dont have"  Your beauty shines brighter than a sunny day  You are something they cant tame and you belong in fame.  Once that day comes Ill be the first to smile because i believed in you before any man has" Those words burned through my veins.  It lefted me confused and was ready to rage Once i left i felt complete cuss remember what you said" Without you girl my life is incomplete"

You became more insane and always here to blame never wanna admit to your mistakes and lie for your life sake Wanted to keep your image right but you are left with alot of lies tried to manipulate me and didnt work manipute others to do your dirty work revengance is in the Lord’s mind so be prepare to do your time.

You’ve made the biggest mistake when you allowed her to walk away away from the toxic hurt you gave made her feel trap in a dark cave as she doesnt feel no one can save her from the scars you have made As she walked freely she walked away easily She now has the best thing she ever had  dont be bitter dont be mad she has peace and shes never sad You’ve became jealous as she walks down the isle with another man while she made a vow All I can say is it sucks to be you right now And what goes around comes back around 

There's something burning i feel on the inside.  It feels like I've been sat on fire   wanting the pain and agony to go away.  I've given up on love because I doubt anyone would ever love me like how I love them.  I wish this burning feeling would go away. It feels like I've been locked in a cage.  I cant escape from this feeling called "RAGE"

I believe you when you said that you will reach into the sky  to steal a star so you can put it on my finger Yes i believed you when you said that you would never hurt me But you left me hopeless and wanted to be free Blind faith made me follow you I’ll leave you behind when I wanted too But I wanted you to ask me and I’ll marry you I’ll never be the same  until i hear Jesus name Lord please heal me and make me strong when God said that he has a better plan He would take me to the promise land But I’m still  filled with rage Like I felt like i was locked up in a cage Honey I loved you ... but I hated you because....

When you looked into my eyes you begin to cry Fell in love with me and all you can do is see Your love is a one inna million it goes on & on & on you gave me a very good feeling all day long We were in love & everything was going right You saw me with your beautiful eyes then you were out of sight Said all the rights words i wanna hear but our love begin to faded, now the end is near ...................

As I sit here writing out the true meaning of love,  I imagine what was sent from up above. There's this thing called Erytry that grows from my roots hoping it'll grow into a beautiful tree.  Maybe someday the essence of a man,  a holy one that sends me to the promise land Then there was you that heaven has sent from up above.  I would give you a doubt to put me in this mess. As he approaches me, grabs my hand and ask to be with him for eternity,  All i can do is Say Yes. 🌼

As you can see what you think about me God been there and set me free This is a story of my life It cut soo deep with a butcher knife Let me introduce you what I’m about to say This poetry will swoop you away Now heres my story about my past Just to let you the pain wont last Heres the beginning of my life my real life...........

I’m wishing on a star to follow where you are I’m getting alittle worry But let tell me ya a story sometimes i feel so worthless in this world Lay in sadness and curled hoping and praying this wont last and all the painful memories will passed I never thought I’d see The time that you would be so far so away from me Please help me and never leave Soaked in lonliness I’m so over this mess After all the thing i’ve felt Lord God almighty please..... help.......

Never thought I’d become the person that hurt me to the core All my life i felt very sore from the damages and scars i can see all this envy will never leave Hurt people hurts people and i became the monster that was created I didnt know who  i was anymore so that when i decided to come to the Lord asking for help, guidence & forgiveness Although I’m impatient but hes teaching me to be patience. Forgive him for me even though he wanted to leave He filled me with healing & comfort as you can see I thank the Lord for saving me

Sitting here in a dark place to mourn & weep Sometimes its hard for me to sleep knowing that tomorrow isnt promised Waking up everyday is a battle for me He said I have a great plan for you to see That this pain within me will leave Begging him for mercy and peace Feeling like he left me alone But its a lesson for me to learn on my own He loves me and will never forsake me He wouldnt give me battles that i cant bear As he looks into my eyes all he can do is stare. Look into my eyes and what do you see I see a queen right in front of me I am with you and you’re with me Here is everything you’ve prayed for No more pain & no more mourn