Qaween Erytry 🌳

As the fire burns through her veins She begin to ask herself “Why do i still care about the person who killed me?” This demon who shot my heart with an AK47 as you can see She begged to be sey free something is holding her back She’s tired of cutting this demon some slack It show’s how vulnerable she is Wished death on him and said he no longer exist to her She thought she didnt care anymore until she saw blood spreaded all over the walls That’s when she knew she said alot of hurtful things out of anger She no longer in love but she still care She asked herself, “Why do i have to be such a good person to him?” She wanted to go into an open land  all by herself crying her eyes out due to his sins that hated her She finally went into peace and happiness Learned to be a forgiven person again UNTIL..........

A sweet innocent girl who went through alot of hell from her family and friends She continued to still be nice to everyone because that’s her personality Even when she was molested at 5&6, went through physical abuse.. she continued to be this sweet little girl As she got older, life. began to become worst & worst It changed her forever. She couldn’t take it anymore She did everything she could to fit in so no one would pick on her She went from a nice innocent girl to a cold hearted person She’s the prettiest most meanest person anyone could meet She was angry until she met her D’Angel D’Angel stands for Demon and Angel Angel on the outside but hes a demon on the inside He made her very vulnerable and nice again He was everything she wanted until he pointed a gun to her head and chest and ...... BOOM Rest in peace to this little girl

Lay me down in a soft mattress to break away all of stress society had brung me. Feet rubbed on, tensions from shoulders takin away.  Blowing on trees brings me into a world of meditation because it's my medication.  It takes me away from society and gets rid of my anxiety.  So daddy you willing to take this journey, just let me know honey.  Listen to soulful music brings us connection spiritually.  Ready or not here i come you can't hide. Gotta find you and take this slowly.  As he looked into my lonly eyes, he asked "You ready?"  I said yes daddy im ready for your love He came from heaven like angels & doves The feeling of escaping reality has become calming No more pain, no more stress I began to do my bad habits less & less No one can get me in their mess Laying in peace and happiness due to this medication It almost feels like im on vacation  So tell me ....... what’s your secret to less ptsd I said......

I love you from bottom of my heart  i cant remember when our love had start Walkin in the hallways i knew u  love me you saw the beauty in me when u was ready to start fallin in love with me and stuck by my side all i can do is cry felt abandon by other people you never left me  you stood by my side and never showed me your crazy pride we begin to fall in love and promise to stay together you promise me that our love is forever i was nervous about us being close cuss of my past u told me that my hurt will never last the person that hurt me was very trash the cry i heard from u had a big sound and u will forever stick around i love you so much and stay with you  we will be together and forever very soon

My name is Erytry I call myself that because everyone wanna be like me I went from a seed to a flower as you can see Make folks wanna stick around and never leave The roots have been developed into something beautiful something wonderful I turn myself around to him as I read the holy book Something bright has came to sight so i looked  What i just saw had me shook I looked into the mirror and reflect  I saw someone whose a once of a kind a beautiful rose that form into a beautiful garden All the thirst i been cravin for 10 years has been fulfilled 

Walked in a field full of roses & the smell of spring Everything you said i finally know what u mean Conviencing me to trust you but i wonder if everything u said was true true love often comes throughout the blue moon i hope you come into my life very soon Not only someone i pray for but someone who prayed for a woman like me a good woman u finally get to see Its not easy when you leave me our bond was undescribable lets follow the love thats in the bible he who find a wife findeth a good thing God has someone in store for you  his promises is always true Time to be grateful for his blessing he didnt have to do this for us followin his is a must ask God to keep me away from lust times does get hard for my life praying all the pain will go away He will deliver me from pain he say .....

Fight & fight for equal rights while the freedom is only for the whites saw alot of hatred from the white man all because of the color of our skin jealousy of our melanin & honey take away our culture for the money ran from the evil masters that wanna control us although we will never get justice followin the drinking gourd is a must saw so much power in blacks  and never wanna cut us some slack the pain & agony our ancestors went through wasn’t fair and no one even cared Escape from hell to go to the freedom land It was success till we were capture by the white man As they torchered us , lynched us and humiliated us they also had alot of lust on black women Jumped on a ship to shore the sea Then the slave master captured me

I wish i can look in your eyes to tell you how i feel deep in side i try to hide all hurtful things in mind But it has show in sight Who wouldve thought I come this far Continue to pray and wished on a star Wondering where you are You show me what love is about You gave your heart to me I’m so in love with you as you can see You promise me that u will never leave Never used my insecurities against me You let all my wrongs in the past Our love will always last I love you and you love me Lets be together forever and be free You grabbed my hand and left with a kiss When you always leave i will always miss you because Im afraid you’d be gone forever I asked will you ever leave me and he replied “Never”

Walking in this world all alone Kept my head held high When he first saw me he never wanted to leave  massage the tensions of pain as he lay me down whispers you’re the best woman i ever found i will never let you down the best lady like u doesnt come around

We often thirst for love Thats when my soulmate came from up above Heaven sent me what i pray for Craving his presence more & more He promise me he will never leave me sore and will never hurt me to the core As we vibe to the old school soulful music our connection ties deeper & deeper Whisper softly in my ears thats when the intimacy is near the thought of two people become one ........

You cant have a piece of my love its not waiting for you  boy its true  Take off my heels and put on my shoes beat ya to the ground & no longer my boo try to keep me quiet with alot of jews 💍 But only person i walked away from is you all the stuff u have put me through alot of pain & agony throughout my body you’re no longer a somebody  to me that was all in the past im glad that we didnt make it last it was suppose to be a make it last forever begged to get back together  and that will happen NEVER But you think that you’re very clever just know that im gone forever & ever alot of scars is still inside of me i’m ready for it to leave being hurt to the core changes you walked all over me like im a dirty mat and theres nothing you can do to ever repair that What goes around comes back around when you in my shoes dont make a sound im the best thing you ever found and it sucks to be you right now it all e...

Looks at you will no lies as he look at you tears was flowing from his eyes As the words rushed into his head heres what he said  “I see a woman , a holy black woman more precious than rubies and no one can compared to you , its you i prayed for and stay together forever more” It left me unsore and very speechless He never made me feel less Those thought always came to my head & heart. I begin to paint love in art This is something I dreamed of  Hoping God will send me someone from above God knows what he’s doing and its apart of his plan  Be patient babygirl he’s preparing you for a good loving man

There’s someone that you love & trust Being honest & loyal is a must Never mix love with lust always here when you need them even through the good & bad he will never leave you sad or mad walking in a valley alone and he’s still here The bright light at the end of valley is near Laying down in bed of silk  relaxing & easing the mind theres no one else he can find The love for each other is true the only woman he ever wanted is YOU He said ....

Another storm has came  I have no one else to blame Everytime something good happens it leaves I just feel like this pain will never leave The trick of the enemy has gotten the best of me Lord God i need you again to wash away all of my sins Learning to face tempations 

Oh Lord, I thank you for your mercy & grace As close as we are I can see your face I’m here to follow and you’re the lead All you wanted for me was to succeed Taught me to be patience & grateful From now on I will remain faithful A long journey has passed and it never last God has forgiven me of my past All these words rushed through my vein but ..........

Everything you’ve said was true I feel so safe when im with you  it seems you have everything you never be alone All of our dreams we had together it will last forever both of our lives have changed since we came and we knew back then As he came into my life  He made me his beautiful wife

Here I am and there you are you look at me like i’m a star Look at me , talk to me say what’s on your mind let’s do this right you’re so fine I wanna make you mine here i am and here we are we are close and never far What do you see I know what i see a man, a fine chocolate holy man who put his life in God’s hand As he looked into my eyes and smile He knew we been together for a while he look into my eyes and begin to speak He that find a good wife found a good thing Someone i love and will never leave The words rushing through my head and then I said.. Who you see? What do you see He said, “A beautiful wife right in front of me”

And there she goes , going into the promise land  Living the life she has dreamed of.  God has given her peace and comfort She more precious than rubies Shes a rare breed  So pretty u never want to leave when she walks into all she can do shine she will not waste your time as happy as she can get she will never forget what she went through and what God has brought out of her All the promises He gave was never a lie She had blossom into a butterfly

And there she is blossom into a beautiful flower Any negative said cant make her sour She went into this thing called “Glo” She is so fine from head to toe All the good attributes she have It reflect on her & she was glad Everything she dreamed of was worked for She said she’ll do it so she did Now she can take a deep and finally live Her life use to be gloomy Now she is more precious than rubies They always ask what free her from stress God is everything and cleaned up her mess He stayed by her side and never left She was filled with his precious spirit She’s finally at peace and while she lay A perfect Godly woman that’s ready to slay

The smell of a black woman filled with honey.  Her beauty is bright and sunny.  The curls hanging from her roots the essence of a beautiful melanin queen makes you wanna see her nude, but mentality not physically.  Although her personality can be sour like lime, she is a once of a life time.  She's melanin drippin honey, sweet like honey cuss she is something. I am a black woman.

A beautiful angel that God has created More precious than rubies and no one can be compared unto you You’re beautiful & thats very true Your face is bright as a sun Beauty has shined within Wouldnt let no toxic man come in  You are precious and very sweet You’re the best person anyone would meet Always keep your head up and dont frown God will always be with you so dont be down You’re the best thing a man has found Wonder what all this mean You are a Beautiful Queen The best queen anyone has ever seen 

For those who feel worthless it’s ok to be sad Keep your head high up into the sky Lay your head in silk sheets The dream you always want to keep you comfort and at peace You’re a Queen the best thing he has seen Just lay back and lean on his shoulders for relieve One day all you have to do is believe You’re sweet like honey and sour like lime God has made you perfectly just in time You’re always .......

When i want to give up  God has shown me his love His love is very strong I knew all along even when i act so stubborn he taught everything to learn I praise him and be thankful His prescence is wonderful Thankful he is here He will always be near

Thought it was real but it was all a dream deep into my thoughts as the time go by reminiscing about everything u said was a lie thinking everything i wanted was gone and now i’m feeling all alone lay in the dark deep in sorrow i question will i make it till tomorrow Felt like was abandon by the people i love so i decided to spread my wings like doves Where is God where is he Hoping he didn’t leave me Use to feeling lefted out and invisible the pain inside made me misrable This time won’t you please save me Break every chain and i’m free.....

Since I was a little girl I always dreamed about having a perfect life & being a good wife Everything was starting to fall into place Until my life started in a worst case Never thought my innocents would be taking away from me I was confused and hurt as you can see Begin to think something was wrong with me The feeling of feeling dirty at the age of 5 years old  Thats when I knew this world was cold Didn’t realize what was really going on I wish this feeling would be gone Sitting here in pain looking to seek I never thought I would feel so weak She was so hurt & covered in sin She wish her life would come to an end......

Writing in my notebook helps me think of how to express my words to sing.  A phone call away wasn't at ease. As the words came out it had me speechless  "You are something that most girls want to be and dont have"  Your beauty shines brighter than a sunny day  You are something they cant tame and you belong in fame.  Once that day comes Ill be the first to smile because i believed in you before any man has" Those words burned through my veins.  It lefted me confused and was ready to rage Once i left i felt complete cuss remember what you said" Without you girl my life is incomplete"

You became more insane and always here to blame never wanna admit to your mistakes and lie for your life sake Wanted to keep your image right but you are left with alot of lies tried to manipulate me and didnt work manipute others to do your dirty work revengance is in the Lord’s mind so be prepare to do your time.

You’ve made the biggest mistake when you allowed her to walk away away from the toxic hurt you gave made her feel trap in a dark cave as she doesnt feel no one can save her from the scars you have made As she walked freely she walked away easily She now has the best thing she ever had  dont be bitter dont be mad she has peace and shes never sad You’ve became jealous as she walks down the isle with another man while she made a vow All I can say is it sucks to be you right now And what goes around comes back around 

There's something burning i feel on the inside.  It feels like I've been sat on fire   wanting the pain and agony to go away.  I've given up on love because I doubt anyone would ever love me like how I love them.  I wish this burning feeling would go away. It feels like I've been locked in a cage.  I cant escape from this feeling called "RAGE"

I believe you when you said that you will reach into the sky  to steal a star so you can put it on my finger Yes i believed you when you said that you would never hurt me But you left me hopeless and wanted to be free Blind faith made me follow you I’ll leave you behind when I wanted too But I wanted you to ask me and I’ll marry you I’ll never be the same  until i hear Jesus name Lord please heal me and make me strong when God said that he has a better plan He would take me to the promise land But I’m still  filled with rage Like I felt like i was locked up in a cage Honey I loved you ... but I hated you because....

When you looked into my eyes you begin to cry Fell in love with me and all you can do is see Your love is a one inna million it goes on & on & on you gave me a very good feeling all day long We were in love & everything was going right You saw me with your beautiful eyes then you were out of sight Said all the rights words i wanna hear but our love begin to faded, now the end is near ...................

As I sit here writing out the true meaning of love,  I imagine what was sent from up above. There's this thing called Erytry that grows from my roots hoping it'll grow into a beautiful tree.  Maybe someday the essence of a man,  a holy one that sends me to the promise land Then there was you that heaven has sent from up above.  I would give you a doubt to put me in this mess. As he approaches me, grabs my hand and ask to be with him for eternity,  All i can do is Say Yes. 🌼

As you can see what you think about me God been there and set me free This is a story of my life It cut soo deep with a butcher knife Let me introduce you what I’m about to say This poetry will swoop you away Now heres my story about my past Just to let you the pain wont last Heres the beginning of my life my real life...........

I’m wishing on a star to follow where you are I’m getting alittle worry But let tell me ya a story sometimes i feel so worthless in this world Lay in sadness and curled hoping and praying this wont last and all the painful memories will passed I never thought I’d see The time that you would be so far so away from me Please help me and never leave Soaked in lonliness I’m so over this mess After all the thing i’ve felt Lord God almighty please..... help.......

Never thought I’d become the person that hurt me to the core All my life i felt very sore from the damages and scars i can see all this envy will never leave Hurt people hurts people and i became the monster that was created I didnt know who  i was anymore so that when i decided to come to the Lord asking for help, guidence & forgiveness Although I’m impatient but hes teaching me to be patience. Forgive him for me even though he wanted to leave He filled me with healing & comfort as you can see I thank the Lord for saving me

Sitting here in a dark place to mourn & weep Sometimes its hard for me to sleep knowing that tomorrow isnt promised Waking up everyday is a battle for me He said I have a great plan for you to see That this pain within me will leave Begging him for mercy and peace Feeling like he left me alone But its a lesson for me to learn on my own He loves me and will never forsake me He wouldnt give me battles that i cant bear As he looks into my eyes all he can do is stare. Look into my eyes and what do you see I see a queen right in front of me I am with you and you’re with me Here is everything you’ve prayed for No more pain & no more mourn